Hate,  Debate,  It’s not love that’s on your mind…

Fate,  Create,  Destiny is what you ought to find…

Tears of blood you shed, asking what went wrong..

Realising that no one cared, Just loneliness all along…

With a past that was fake, having uncertainty as your bride…

You make a small mistake..and then you are Crucified..

Smiles become a myth, you start to live on pain..

Vengeance is what you breathe…Memories is what remain..

Hide, Suicide,   Every path you take has betrayal at its end…

By your side, they lied..Every friend you make, the devil has send..

The sun never rises, the night is here to stay..

your journey is through hell, there is no other way..

You look out for your stars, even they can’t decide…

with only demons inside,  you stand Crucified..

You look up at the heavens…

For strength,  for some light…

A ray of hope,  the God might send…

Bringing dawn ,  an end to the night…

The Human in you cries,  it dies…

You stand unforgiven, thinking why you fell..

The welcomes are all gone you see..

Now it’s time for farewell..

I am still waiting for a glimpse of my dawn…

Pondering over all that I tried…

Thinking though Jesus himself was God…

Even he stood betrayed and Crucified…

Darkness is now all i see

Things aren’t what they were meant to be

Seeking truth, looking for eyes that love

I always end up at the stairway to above

Tired of the Nightmares

Sick of being someone else

Have just hypocrites all around

And its then that my conscience tells

Tears have dried up

But no one cares to see

Death just may be life for me

Was looking for clues to my survival

Was looking for reasons to smile

Had demons standing tall, trying to make me look small

Every moment putting me on trial

Tired Of them i just don’t wanna stay

Life is a maze and i cant find my way

I’m just running from myself..

Now on the Edge of a knife

Thinking For me, Death just may be life

Just when i thought I was Suffocating

Came a fresh whiff of air and i started breathing..

Darkness begin to disappear, the clouds started to clear

With only curses coming from all around

Finally words of love i could hear

But soon the voice turned faint

And the pain again grew

Journey was lonely again..

All the way through..

My angel, she betrayed

The curses, they all stayed

Her thoughts tore me apart

As voices told me in my heart

Death May Be Life I desire

I wanna escape this inferno, This Fire

Heaven Is What I seek

But It will never be

Coz I have got Hell

Right inside of me

Think about the past
look inside of me..
It’s just us that you’ll see

when you were gone
i thought the tears would dry…
And then i tripped on reality

My eyes still search for you
my lips wanna say your name…
My ears wanna hear you once…
Cause Its deafening…

The Scream of your Silence..

Wish you were here,so i could tell you..
you are always in my thoughts, in my head..
Wish you were here,so i could tell you..
Your smile reflects in every tear i shed…

Can’t find you near, Life ain’t there it seems
If you aren’t there in them..i dont wanna see any dreams..
I am all alone, but still i can hear a scream..
Its deafening…

The Scream of your Silence…

This time has frozen..
Its waiting for you..
I dont want to think about tommorow..
When today is not getting through..

Lost my way now..
like a ship in the stormy seas..
Even if i die now..
my soul wont rest in peace..

If I cant feel you, Numb i want to be..
If i cant see you, nothing else i want to see..
Everytime i breathe i just want to smell thee..
But all i can hear..

is the Scream of your Silence….

illusion….Its about something that we all have faced in our lives..sometime or the other…illusion is about living in a world that’s fake…illusion is about suddenly realising that you are just another face in the crowd…

All my poems have been an exhibition of what i felt at the very moment i was writing them…illusion is no different….but its not only about me..i am sure each one of you must have been through the same phase someday or the other…when you start feeling really out of place…in this fast forward world…with no one walking besides you….you need to keep pace…i couldn’t..but yes..i am trying..

If you cant relate to this poem..i shall be very happy..and hope you never do…Hope you like this new thought of mine…do help me keep pace….write how you found it….as i always say..It helps……

Do you know what it feels to be…
like be a ship in a stormy sea..
Caught between the waves of uncertainty…
That’s what you’ll feel like…if you be me…

Sitting alone in this room…
Thinking about my past..
I go back to the moments…
Moments of happiness that just didn’t seem to last…

Do you know what it feels to be…
like a log of wood caught in a flood…
Being at the mercy of some1 else..hoping against hope…
This is how i feel now..i just want to elope….
Friends are just a few steps away..
in the next room i can hear them sing…
But the music in my life seems muted..they are all gone…
It was just an illusion and am all alone…

do you know what it feels like…
Getting lost in a crowd of strangers….
To cry without showing any of your tears…
having to face everyday all your fears…

And now as i look around me..
I return back to reality…
Yearning to go back home…
From This place where even smiles dont come for free…

Do you know what it feels like..
To be a grave having no visitors..
Having no one loving thee…

Do you know What it feels like..
To be the person i am…to be me…

Today you find yourself alone…
Staring into eyes of despair…
Living a life thats overrated…
yearning and begging for all that care…

You should have known, It was due..
When you just cannot run through..
It does not remain the same..
When you play the Game of Blame…

You think you have won, But its yourself you are losing..
You are out there in a world thats fake…
With people who themselves are a lie…
Blinded by insecurity..For someone else’ sake…

But your over sized ego takes over you…
You end up defeating your conscience too…
You found someone new..that is what you claim…
Finding pride in shame…Winning the Game of Blame..

Now as i see my reflection in your eyes…
You say you are happy, i know you are sad inside…
Basking in the darkness, running from reality…
That you have won the Game of Blame…
But you have lost me….

As i walk down these streets of life
i see that, i am all alone..
There is a crowd in which i am lost
but all are strangers, i should have known..

It was just yesterday, it seems, i had all my friends around me
it was like a dream i lived, i just loved who I used to be..
But i saw the distances grow, as the days went by
each one had their own lives, I couldn’t complain, but i don’t know why..

I found myself lonely, they all were just gone
the dreams were all broken, they were shattered ,they were torn..

So i turned to my angel, who i knew would always be there
As i could weather any storm, for her love, with her care..

I turned around, my eyes betrayed me..she was nowhere to be seen..
when i needed her the most, life couldn’t get any more mean..

i saw her finally, and my life came to a halt…
she was part of the crowd, laughing at me, saying its all your fault..

i fought my tears, i consoled myself, i knew this couldn’t be true
she was the strength inside me, i said, as the weakness inside me grew..
she was my reason to live..but this life itself seemed a curse..
she was the light in my life..but all left now was darkness..

finally, the person inside me..died a painful death
No one shed even a tear, no one even lay a wreath..

and now i walk again, on this road.
the one, the ghost of loneliness has haunted..
in pain, in tears..
feeling all the more unwanted….

As the ghosts come to life…
And the Shadows get longer..
As the night creeps in…
So does the Devil in me…

With Blood in my eyes..
I search for the thing that caused it..
But i am caught in a storm..
I cant see through the haze…

I am Craving in the Coffin…
Craving for your love…
To pull the devil out of me..
To get back alive…

Walking in the Garden of Thorns…
I learn to take all the pain…
As i search for A flower…
A flower that is you…

All I see now is dead…
Calling me to be with them..
Craving in the coffin I just realise..
That my soul is still with you…

Now I have got the key to hell…
But the door just wont open…
Because even devil himself knows…
I have still left something behind..

The Sun is now rising again, Bringing things back to life…
And i need to go to where i belong…
But remember as long as you will be living..
For your love…I am Craving in this Coffin..

Get me out of here..I want to live again…
Get me out of here..I want to breathe again…

Hi guys…You all must be thinking…where did i dissapear…My blog was pulled of all of a sudden..But i had reasons to do that…and i am sorry i did that….

First people said that my poems were getting all the same…though that didnt lessen my fan following…i mean not my fans..my poems’ ofcourse…lot of people still could relate with them…Then something realy bad happened with me…and the poet in me had to die down for a few days…

But now i am back..and i am different…This time my blog is going to introduce a different genre of Poems..They will be called Rock Poems…These poems are inspired from all the rock songs i listen to…but yes..all of them are going to be original…..different from the normal stuff i write..it will contain aggresive emotions..less of the rhyming stuff..but am sure…even people who dont listen to rock will like it..i promise that….

My normal poems ofcourse will be there….as they were the reason for the success of FEELINGS…And i hope they are better  than ever..

Now comes the real big one…I am going to have a special request page on this blog..for all my readers..whoever wants to request a poem..can do that here…and i will write one for him or her…I just need a bit of input on the situation..a couple of emotions attached to it…and yes even the name if you want to…and i shall try and write something just you…you can register on my blog by writing a comment on the requests page…just a check for the number of requests coming in..and then mail me on c_roshan@qualcomm.com with all the details…only as much as you want me to know though…hope you guys will like this concept..

Do check out the coming soon page for the my upcoming poems…

FEELINGS was a hit just because of you guys..keep the love coming for FEELINGS 2….