I Have Feelings 2….

Do you know what it feels to be…
like be a ship in a stormy sea..
Caught between the waves of uncertainty…
That’s what you’ll feel like…if you be me…

Sitting alone in this room…
Thinking about my past..
I go back to the moments…
Moments of happiness that just didn’t seem to last…

Do you know what it feels to be…
like a log of wood caught in a flood…
Being at the mercy of some1 else..hoping against hope…
This is how i feel now..i just want to elope….
Friends are just a few steps away..
in the next room i can hear them sing…
But the music in my life seems muted..they are all gone…
It was just an illusion and am all alone…

do you know what it feels like…
Getting lost in a crowd of strangers….
To cry without showing any of your tears…
having to face everyday all your fears…

And now as i look around me..
I return back to reality…
Yearning to go back home…
From This place where even smiles dont come for free…

Do you know what it feels like..
To be a grave having no visitors..
Having no one loving thee…

Do you know What it feels like..
To be the person i am…to be me…

As i walk down these streets of life
i see that, i am all alone..
There is a crowd in which i am lost
but all are strangers, i should have known..

It was just yesterday, it seems, i had all my friends around me
it was like a dream i lived, i just loved who I used to be..
But i saw the distances grow, as the days went by
each one had their own lives, I couldn’t complain, but i don’t know why..

I found myself lonely, they all were just gone
the dreams were all broken, they were shattered ,they were torn..

So i turned to my angel, who i knew would always be there
As i could weather any storm, for her love, with her care..

I turned around, my eyes betrayed me..she was nowhere to be seen..
when i needed her the most, life couldn’t get any more mean..

i saw her finally, and my life came to a halt…
she was part of the crowd, laughing at me, saying its all your fault..

i fought my tears, i consoled myself, i knew this couldn’t be true
she was the strength inside me, i said, as the weakness inside me grew..
she was my reason to live..but this life itself seemed a curse..
she was the light in my life..but all left now was darkness..

finally, the person inside me..died a painful death
No one shed even a tear, no one even lay a wreath..

and now i walk again, on this road.
the one, the ghost of loneliness has haunted..
in pain, in tears..
feeling all the more unwanted….